Giving Up

My son got the flu, then a couple days later, I got a virus that was somehow not the flu, so it was not a happy few days in the apartment. Because I was dealing with the sickness, I got behind with NaNoWriMo, then figured that the stress of trying to get caught back up would not be worth it, so I decided not to try.

Maybe at some point, I will revisit the story again, but for now, I think it is best to let it be forgotten. My subconscious will work on it in my sleep, I know that much. I still like my “existing” stories a lot more, even though it has been so long since I’ve worked on them.

I keep telling myself that I’m going to get back to it, perhaps write 200 or 500 words a day, just as long as I write something. But by the end of the day, when the baby is finally in bed, I am ready to go to bed myself (even though it’s only like 7:30). So I end up sitting on the couch with my husband and reading a book until my eyes can’t stay open anymore.

I wish I could write until my eyes can’t stay open anymore, but reading is less effort. Then I tell myself that I will write about the books I read on this blog, so I technically will be writing at some point! Any writing is better than nothing, I suppose. Plus, the new year is coming, so that means… resolution time!

 

Thursday Three #57

These are my thoughts on NaNoWriMo 2019 so far:

  1. I’m writing the entire novel on WordPress because I’m writing mostly on my breaks at work, and we’re not allowed to plug in flash drives unless they’re for work. I’m on WordPress anyway, so I figured I might as well start the novel there (also, WordPress has auto-save and word count features). So the novel is on this blog as a private entry, but I will never make it public because…
  2. Like all first drafts, it is appallingly bad. Not only is it bad, it is incredibly boring. I am bored with my characters but not with the plot. I wish I could recycle some of my old characters like I normally do (and I miss them terribly), but the plot wouldn’t work well with any of them. This particular story takes place in another “universe.”
  3. The other reason this story is bad and boring is because I didn’t do enough planning. My rudimentary outline is just a list of stuff that’s supposed to happen, and it’s not even in order. I didn’t flesh anything out, and now that I’m hammering out words mindlessly, I don’t feel like I have time to flesh it out. I’m actually planning the second draft as I’m writing the first. Not sure if that’s a proper way to do it, but it’s new to me. And that keeps the whole thing somewhat interesting.

Happy All Hallows and NaNo Eve!

I’m not a fan of Halloween. Even when I was a kid, I did not like dressing up and knocking on people’s doors asking for candy, and I did not trick-or-treat anymore after I turned 10. Better to wait until Christmas, when you got candy and treats without having to ask strangers for them. I also have a grudge against Halloween because my brother and I went out trick-or-treating one year, but Halloween had been celebrated the day before because of Protestant church services. No candy for us. You could imagine how that would break a kid’s heart. It’s stupid to hold a grudge, I know, but I still do.

I don’t plan to pass my Halloween grudge on to my son. When he gets old enough to walk and talk, it will be fun to take him around so he can get candy and show people his cute and/or scary costume. I will have to be mindful of the calendar because I think Halloween still gets rescheduled sometimes. (Grr…)

Anyway, tomorrow is All Saint’s Day, NaNoWriMo, and the beginning of November (my favorite month after April). Fall is nice because the weather finally cools down (although I’m sure by March, we’ll all be complaining about how the weather needs to hurry up and get warm again).

Hope everyone has a nice fall and a productive NaNoWrimo, if you are participating!