It’s silly to mourn over a crush,
but I did.
I tried to forget him,
told myself I was punishing him
by not seeing him.
But I was only hurting myself.
I didn’t think I really cared that much.
I didn’t see Lindsey around.
because if I did see her,
I would feel the awful urge to shake it
out of her.
Instead, I saw Maddy and Amanda
huddled close together,
enveloped, protected by their mean words.
They looked up in time to see me.
I wondered if they knew the truth
or my crush.